Outdoor Sat

Well yesterday was different alright, spending the entire day outdoor is not what i usually do but it's kind of refreshing in a good way.

It might sound cliche, but ya, we went for picnic at the botanic garden. The trip would be better without stupid those stupid minas working up about a football hitting them going at a speed of probably 0.5 km/hr. "Eh guys, you mind playing somewhere further anot?", well how bout you all go home and picnic so you will be defiantly safe?














After that, off we go, heading to the night safari's halloween night. The crowd was fucking insane i swear. If the place was bombed yesterday, Singapore's population would probably drop by 10%. Jp is the man! He gave us all 50% discount for all our tickets, shiok! Thanks a lot man!

More picture to be uploaded soon if im not feeling lazy.

Wrote a rather short song today.

here's the lyrics

Bits In Me
baby tell me you love me
or the bits in me will die slowly

baby tell me you need me
or the past we had will gone vanished

is this all what came to be
all the signs you gave were nothing but lies

is this all what came to be
all the smile you gave were not to be mine

baby tell me you love me
or the bits in me will die slowly

baby tell me you need me
or the past we had will gone vanished
or the signs you gave will gone vanished
or the smiles you gave will gone vanished.

Cant i ask? Cant i know? Why?

It makes me so pissed off as all along im trying to tell myself to ignored all the things that makes me felt so uncomfortable. All those little things has huge impact on me did you know? You have no idea how those little things again and again killed my day. The worse of all, i had to put up a front and laugh along as it would be damn obvious, and i'll look damn petty if i do show my true feelings.

Im trying very hard to not act as an emo asshole or a jealous son of a bitch, but it's really killing me inside slowly every day by day do you know? The fear of you getting snatch away by some other guy is just driving me mad. I dont wanna be like this, but it is human nature. I really cant control it. In fact, im trying very hard not to show it.

Everytime i wanna be mad at you, i just cant. Why? Fucking simply im not in anyways related to you. So who am i to get angry and unhappy about? Im just another guy, another guy who's nothing extraordinarily special.

I guess im just nothing to you.

Im sick and tired of all these shits. It all seems to be my fault, but hell, doesn't he plays the major role as well?

So, in the eyes of my family, i'd discovered today that im just a selfish, worthless, useless son of a garbage can.

I myself is on the verge of my own breaking point, and yet i have no rights to just simply enjoy a night out.

Poor academic results during my secondary school days seems to make them think im useless up till now. Well, what can i say? Im sorry that im born to be bad with science and math? My art, mother tongue , humanities got b3, and a b4 for my english. That make up 21 points for my L1R4.

Not good enough for me to enter a local poly? MOE, you should really question yourselves why would thoes designing courses needs math and sci as a requirement? Shouldn't a student who took up art as a subject to be given the green light into the designing courses?

Dont you need a damn test to filter the creatives from the others? You simply took in people who are unproven potential creatives and just let them enter, base on their "overall" result?

This results in people being force to take up courses that they are not interested in, and that results in people losing interest in their studies and drop out.

Splitting people into JCs, Polys and ITE is not the way to do it as well MOE.

I always - and still - believes that everyone are born with something which they have some special talent in. So ya, please do something to benefit everyone, and stop the sorting, it's not helping. Its wasting potential talents in the country.

How i wish that im born in some western country, where moving out when you're 18 seems to be the perfectly natural thing to do. I'd realized that my dad has a very traditional Chinese mindset.

I do respect everyone in my family (well except for one which everyone knows), but you, you is the perfect example of a bad father, the last thing a child needs to have.

You've done a superb job in terms of putting the bread on the table everyday, but what i needed most the your trust and support on the things i do. You once said in our recent argument that i'd not even you enough trust. For fuck sake im your fucking son. Is our house a damn company? So am i the office boy now who needs to serve coffee and boot-licking you to earn my "promotion"? Are all the rest of my brothers the "managers" now in the "company"?

I've got enough shits to deal with, in terms of school, relationship, cash, and friendship. The last thing i need is for you to "instruct" bro to ask me where am i, while im busy rushing my fucking Jetstar group project in Starbucks, somewhere far away in town.

I'd come to a conclusion on why our relationship is that bad.

You like to assume.

You are always so fucking paranoid with everything. If i stay up late in my room, you will assume im using the net, doing things which are nonconstructive. If im outside, you will assume that im out since very late, where the fact is that i just went out like only at 4 or 5 pm.

You know, i once came across reading something very interesting, but yet so true on the internet? Ok, here it goes-

"When You Assume, It make an "ASS" out of "U" and "Me" .

Funny, but damn true people.

Im not saying that im denying that i dont assume. Everyone does it. You see a badly dressed guy, you assume he's an ah beng. When you see some working person on the train, you assume he's some office boy who earn like only maybe 1,500 per month.

What if that day the "office guy's" car was sent for maintenance? What if the "ah beng" is just going to some shopping mall near to his home to grab some household stuffs?

See, people just tend to assume things, which does indeed made an ass out of "you and me".

So ya, my dad is indeed an ass, period.

I'll make my children speak Spanish next time, so my dad will not be able to transmit his "oh so yesterday" mindset to pollute their minds.

We are currently rushing our Jetstar's project now over at the Startbucks beside Peace Center (which is very near my school for those who got no fucking clue).

So why are we at starbucks now? Apprently, our test print went so wrong that we now have to do hell lots of editing to them, damn sian.

Dont you guys just hate it when you are like updating your facebook status, twitter and blog, and there's somebody beside you, who are reading it as you are STILL typing it?

Ok i know, you will get to read it anyway but seriously come on, that irritates the fucking hell out of me.

I just told Soon Hian off after he did that to me for like the 3rd time in the past 10 mins. To be honest, im kind of guilty right now for scolding him.

Whats wrong with me nowadays? I get frustrated and moody so easily now and then. I used to be so chill you know. In the past, it takes fucking lots of effort to make me pissed. But look at me now, even a single small matter seems to trigger the alarm in me.

Maybe im sick and tired of being the nice guy as no one really seems to appreciate.

People dont gives a fuck to be honest. They will just make use of you as i've come to realize.

Well, i have to continue my project now, see ya guys, and ya, once agin, thanks for still reading (if you are).



This damn Jetstar group project is honestly killing me slowing, with ideas so difficult to come by, damn. With all the assessments happening on next week, character design and typography are currently doing me no good, trying to steal my long awaited weekend away from me.

Before i go, here's some of the ads i did for my very initial classes. Hope you guys like it man!

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